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[10 14 11] |
[Hexed private to Astoria Greengrass]
What are you doing Tuesday? Would you like to spend the evening with me?
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| 113 |
[10 07 11] |
I could use a change of scenery.
[Hexed to Theo and Daphne]
My father is asking me to condemn the people I know of from Dumbledore's Army back in school. He's going to give their names to the Dark Lord. I can't say no... this is torturing me. I don't want to drag anyone else into this but I'm torn and have to tell you, just to hear someone else thoughts on this. I told him I'd need some time to remember them.
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| 112 |
[08 12 11] |
[Hexed private to friends]
Ever get the feeling that your life isn't your own and look back on the seemingly care free days of Hogwarts and think it never was? I care about my parents and I do love them, but sometimes I wish I'd been born to a different family or wish at least that they hadn't jumped onto the bandwagon of their time and allowed themselves to serve their own purposes rather than those of another. I look around me often and see that things are just as miserable as they were before.
I can honestly say that the best part of my day is when I get to see Astoria. She is the only thing that is light in my life.
I just severely wish things were different in the world and I could have my own life.
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| 111 |
[06 28 11] |
[Private to Astoria]
I want to do something with you this weekend. How do you feel about getting away from everyone and everything. No stress, no worries, just us.
[/Private]
It feels like it's already been a week since yesterday. It's only Tuesday?
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[06 27 11] |
two years later
Malfoy Manor, England
June 27, 2006
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| 110 |
[01 10 11] |
[Hexed to Pansy]
We need to talk.
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| 109 |
[01 10 11] |
[Hexed to close friends]
I'm at home. I'm worried for my parents and couldn't relax while not being there to make sure they're alright.
[/hex]
Clearly, no place is off limits.
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| 108 |
[12 20 10] |
[Hexed to self]
Being there and seeing Potter was not easy. I haven't seen him and his band of lowly followers in a long time and I couldn't help but to be angry with him. If he'd done it right the first time then I may still be in hiding but it would be a lot more bearable than this. The Prophet is right to point much of the blame on him. I'm sure it isn't just the newspaper that blames him, I'll bet plenty of other people do too. My family is more oppressed because the Dark Lord returned than we would have been before. We would have been better off if he never came back in the first place and things certainly won't improve if he gains power of the Ministry and everything else. I'm not some naive adolescent anymore and I've learned enough now to know where I stand. The only problem is convincing my parents of that, and that is something I'm almost afraid to even bring up. If the Dark Lord were to find out that we talked about getting away or anything of the nature then that could be the end of it, and I'd rather not die by his hand if I can help it.
He's already murderously angry as it is. Of course we were all blamed but I feel like Father and I are favorite targets. It's humiliating and entirely frightening.
[/hex]
[Hexed to friends]
I'll be at Theo's place for the next several days. Home isn't exactly bearable right now with the constant presence of the people that keep coming in and out. I just need to get away. I know I saw this a lot but this time it's different. Something happened and He's not happy with it. He's not going to sit quietly on this one and I anticipate a large show of retaliation.
[/hex]
[Hexed to Astoria]
I hope you enjoy France and being able to get out of your house without fear of the old cat lady or anything else.
[/hex]
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| 107 |
[12 09 10] |
[Private to self]
It's torturous knowing that people like Weasley and Granger are happily living their lives while I'm here at home, unable to really do anything independently. Father is so sure that things will improve for us as long as we continue to do all that we can to please Him. I wish I could point out that things have never been good since His initial return. We all thought they would be, but if anything the Malfoys have only been losing. We've really gained nothing and now look at where we are? I feel like there's nothing I can do but agree with Father and continue to keep my head down while hoping not to be noticed. If things improve then good, otherwise I'd rather not be noticed while all of this is happening.
I can at least look forward to seeing Astoria again.
[/private]
[Private to Theo]
I spent a day with Astoria at her place. Stupid, I know but I was very careful about listening for anyone arriving at her place. I won't let her be seen with me, of course. I brought some polyjuice potion and took her out to get some groceries that she needed.
I can't help but feel she is like a ray of light in all of this mugginess.
[/private]
May the end come swiftly and as painless as possible.
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| 106 |
[11 22 10] |
[Hexed to Astoria]
How are you doing? I know it's been a good while since the attack but I wanted to be sure you were okay.
[/hex]
[Hexed to friends]
Got some polyjuice potion and I can't wait to use it.
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| 105 |
[10 04 10] |
[Hexed to friends]
Went out the other night to a bar. Best night I've had in a long time. I've never been in a bar fight and all I can say is that I'm glad Theo was there with me. Fortunately, he still had wits enough about him to apparate us out of there when the entire room of muggles banded against us.
Clearly we looked strongly out of place in our expensive clothing surrounded by leather clad and tattooed muggles.
Sorry that I scared you Pansy. I really needed to get out of the house and some place I didn't have to worry about being seen.
[/hex]
[Theo]
I forgot to ask you, but Daphne suggested I look into using polyjuice potion to go out. I can't possibly brew it here, would it be safe to do so at your place?
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| 104 |
[09 27 10] |
[Hexed to Theo/Pansy]
I'm going out. I can't stand being here for another moment longer. I'm going to find some muggle bar and get a drink. Oblivion sounds amazing and I can't get it here. I'm going to go stir crazy if I don't leave for the night and staying holed up somewhere else doesn't count. Risks be damned.
[/hex]
I envy those who can openly go out and do what they want and with who ever they want. People whine about the most trivial things while their basic freedoms are being taken for granted.
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| 103 |
[09 11 10] |
[Hexed to friends only]
Italy was great. It's a shame to have to be leaving today. I'm surprised we weren't bothered the whole time we were there. I hate to come back to England and all of it's problems. Hopefully it will all end soon, one way or another. I think when it's all over I'll leave the country. Anywhere else sounds better than home. Like starting over someplace new and reinventing myself to be who I want to be. Not who I'm expected to be.
[/hex]
[Hexed to Bellatrix]
Thank you for being willing to teach me more than I know. I look forward to the start of our lessons together.
[/hex]
Italy is amazing this time of year. I'm sure anywhere but here could be amazing.
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| 102 |
[08 24 10] |
[Hexed Anonymous]
And thus is the wrath of Alecto Carrow.
[/hex]
[Hexed Friends Only]
Got dragged into that shit. This week in Italy is exactly what the healer ordered. Unfortunately I'm currently stuck in bed until I can move again.
[/hex]
[Private to self]
Of course this would happen. Take someone who wishes they weren't bound to any of this and nearly get him killed to remind him of the very real possibility that this won't end well. Like I really think it will or could. I just hope the end comes soon.
If only magical healing were painless. I've never been in so much pain before. Yeah, I'm sure there's worse pain than this, but it's not something I'd ever want to repeat.
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| 101 |
[08 12 10] |
[Posted Anonymously]
Can anyone suggest something good to read. I've run out of interesting things to read and I need to pass the time somehow.
[Hexed to friends]
I feel extremely restless. I've been unable to leave my home since the attack on the Ministry. Being recognizable and a wanted fugitive doesn't help things.
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| 100 |
[07 30 10] |
[Posted anonymously]
I hate seeing my parents like this. They've worked too hard to get where they are and now, well it hasn't turned out the way it was planned. I feel like a prisoner in my own home sometimes, like my hands are tied and all I can do is watch and wait for the next thing to happen. I suppose it's partly my fault. If it weren't for me then maybe things would be a lot different. I'm sure they would.
[Hexed to Pansy]
Can I see you soon? We can barricade ourselves in my room and hope that no one bothers us.
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